The Labyrinth

alvik

The labyrinth

hate it
neglect your demons
or hide
you decide
half life
or being alive
.
when the door closes
it spirals down
endlessly in circles
and now you´re descending
to the bottom line
to that moment
when you broke your spine
to all that grief
that you left behind
.
you see
how can you get up
when you have no backing
the ground is gone
when your dignity is lacking
.
I looked up instead of in
tried to breath
but the air was too thin
I looked up longing to fly
but wings don´t carry a broken spine
I stopped looking
wanting to die
I looked as though
everything was fine
.
you see
hate it
neglect you demons
or hide
you decide
half life
or being alive
.
and you are not even crying
the pain is so deep
it feels like dying
feel it
feel it now
or you won´t stop lying
feel it
feel your back
and start flying
.

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-detonatord

Know Fear

SAMSUNG

Know fear

.
no pain no gain
before you reach the end
you feel you´re going insane
can´t retrain the brain
cause´you´re locked up
in emotional strain
and every try to fix things
is trying in vain

until one day you´re fed up
can´t get your head up
you´ve let yourself down
and you give up
with nothing left to defend
you completely surrend
without knowing
it´s the beginning
it´s not the end

what doesn´t kill you makes you stronger
but you can´t take it any longer
you´re living your life like Sisyfos
behind every victory
is a god damn loss
by now
you think it´s a cross you must bear
you can´t see
it´s been the road to know fear
now
you´re too weary to feel it
you´re one step away
to be able to heal it

you´re fed up
can´t get you´re head up
you´ve let youself down
and you give up
with nothing left to defend
finally
you can completely surrend
knowing
it´s the beginning
and not the end

.
.
-detonatord

It feels like

SAMSUNG

It feels like

.

not afraid of death
I´m most afraid of living
my pain in plexus and heartache
are relentless, unforgiving
it feels like
my demons are becoming me
I have nothing left to give, you see
I am the leaf
that is left from the whole tree
forgive me
for the pain that I suffer
right now
my black icy cold heart
is all I have to offer
it´s asking me to choose
to be vulnerable
or tougher

it´s depressing
all of our society
only knows escaping
and repressing
but there´s a way
towards the freedom
of expressing
it stumbles through the dark
for every truth
you are confessing

and we all try
to piece ourselves together
shards of glass are cutting us
until our hands feel like leather
no one tells you that
it feels like
the pieces don´t fit
no one tells you it burns
when your fire is lit
no one tells you that
facing this bottomless pit
you´re descending
trancending
and owning your shit

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-detonatord